October 2010
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fml.
why do things always have to be so complicated?
this sucks.
this is the 2nd or 3rd to last situation i want to be in right now.
trouble's been hard
social situations are just too much for me it seems. i honestly don’t know how to handle myself at all. especially with girls. life is hard.
i’ve made an effort to meet people which is huge for me in and of itself. i met this really cool and super cute girl. the problem i don’t know how to handle myself with girls. and i don’t want a relationship right now. i guess i...
“therapy, i’ve been enslaved. i think i’ll medicate this rage…”
– Max Bemis
no title
well, tonight was…interesting.
i felt way too comfortable around that girl.
im not sure how i feel about that.
is it bad or good?
maybe your glamour's not in boston, but my friends...
i finally listened to some good advice and got out tonight. actually talking to people. ha imagine that, me talking to new people. its weird talking to girls single. i met this one girl who was cute seemed pretty cool, and i was awkward as usual. ill have to try and find her later this weekend and say whats up :P
tomorrow night is gonna be fucking awesome. going to this ill show and just getting...
“…and me, i’m in my bedroom drawing in my notebook ‘cause my...”
– Conor Oberst
a kindred lycanthrope will never see the sun
i haven’t been getting to sleep lately. i don’t know the full reason why. part of me doesn’t want to dream. nightmares/terrors haunt me even in my waking hours. i do not want them to return and so i avoid sleep. i am becoming a creature of the night, joining my ‘mythical’ brethren as i stalk through these forgotten hours. i’m beginning to feel less like a human...
“as you walk away i can almost see a shade of your blue eyes fading away into the...”
– Max Bemis
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i thought i was getting over you
i really did. i guess i was wrong. i woke up this morning and saw your new picture and now you’re all i can think about and it’s killing me. visiting e this weekend made me feel so much better but now it’s as if it never happened. i can’t take this any longer but i have no place i can go. i can’t stay here, but i can’t go home. everywhere i go and everything i...
What A Weekend
This was an amazing weekend. i had soooo much fun in boston. more fun than i’ve had in who knows how long. being with my best friend was just the best. i really wish i didn’t have to leave, i had such a great time. i crazy happy now too! i can’t stop smiling and i hope i feel like this for a while. cant wait to see my best friend again <3
BOSTON
w00t im soo excited to go to visit e. i need this more than anything right now. buuuuut i have to get up way fuckin early. 5.30-6.00 am. the fuck. is that shit. but its only a minor inconvenience, plus i can probably sleep on the bus.
HOLYSHITIMSOFUCKINGEXCITEDYAYAYAYAYAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“Now I’ve justified this to myself in all sorts of ways…But...”
– Mark Renton - Trainspotting.
This Post Is Called "It's A Metaphor Fool"
Hwell well well today was a very very angry day. just this burning rage inside of me. All that has happened recently with her is bullshit. Over the last four years i have wasted thousands of dollars and all i have to show for it is a handful of memories in a broken heart and a lie inked into my wrist forever. These incensant eyes burning the one i once called lover. I haven’t felt anything...
“You drink that whiskey down as they ask you, are you who you say that you are?...”
– Conor Oberst
NOTICE: TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN
Lyric-offs are officially a thing. the rules are as follows.
1. First a song is picked, by posting the first line somewhere. [Including, but no limited to Facebook, Twitter, IM, and Tumblr]
2. Both [or all] ‘players’ are to reply with the next line [If you want a shorter game, phrases/stanzas are acceptable]
3. No player should at any time during the game look up the lyrics to the...
i spent a day dreaming of dying
in mesa, arizona where all the green of life had turned to ash and i felt i was on fire, with the things i could have told you i just assumed that you eventually would ask… and i wouldn’t have to bring up my so badly broken heart and all those months i just wanted to sleep and though spring, it did come slowly, i guess it did its part my heart has thawed and continues to beat
...
microwave broke this morning when i tried to make breakfast. is there anything that can go right in my life right now?
“it’s all just a fix, just one little hit…you’re holding in”
– Nik Freitas - Conor Oberst and the The Mystic Valley Band
Just had to tell someone who knows me...
she makes things harder on both of us. she can’t ask me stuff like if shes my best friend. the whole dynamic of our relationship has change. she wasn’t my best friend, she was my other half. but that isn’t true right now. maybe it will be again, but it’s going to take time.
at least i have e. she has been such a great friend to me. shes my best friend, and i know she will...
All Your Friends and Sedatives
Mean Well, But Make It Worse
Every Reassurance Just Magnifies The Doubt
Better Find Yourself A Place To Level Out…
i really love conor oberst. i cant get enough of him. i had coffee with her today. it was hard, but i think it went alright. she knows where im at now, and thats a good improvement. its still really hard though. when i hugged her it didnt feel the same, and i was afraid of...
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“i put the past into the ground, i saw the future as a cloud. if there’s...”
– Conor Oberst
40 hours, television, and prescription pills
well, i take 3 a day to make my brain behave.
it never does, but who’s to say?
I have been listening to bright eyes all day. 4 and a half hour train ride that turned into 6. loose leaves is an amazing song.
i heard one that i could sing along with, so i must know it, but i can’t find it. because of course i don’t remember the title or how it goes
but yeah i feel like...
“And you can’t believe that he’s really gone, when all that’s...”
– Conor Oberst
[this ain't no] family business
she needs to explain the whole story to her parents. they clearly are missing like 2/3 of what is going on. they know that i care about her. but it sounds like they think I broke up with HER. i understand her not explaining that she cheated on me, but because she got her self sent home her parents deserve to know that whole story. i should not be getting any shit from them. and especially not...
“It got so cold our words just froze. We had to wait ‘til summer to find...”
– Justin Pierre of Motion City Soundtrack
beLIEve
stop trying to force me to say i love you. i told you that i do. but you and i both know it isn’t the way you want. i can’t give you that right now and you need to accept that.
ok enough talking directly at someone who won’t even read this.
i’m fairly fucking confused about my whole existence right now. last night as i was falling asleep i thought that maybe i could...
i wish she would stop. and i wish i were there.
she needs to leave me alone. it hurts so much more being told all that stuff. i dont know how i feel, but i know i dont love her the way she wants. not right now. i need time. it just hurts. so much.
i wish it was this weekend and not next that i am going to visit e. she is my best friend in the whole world. i can tell her anything <3. but i cant cry in front of her for some reason. i wanted...
